Poor Leah never fully held the heart of husband, Jacob heart. It wasn’t her fault that her father tricked him into marrying her. But it didn’t stop her attempt to gain his approval and affection. Have you ever found yourself seeking validation from someone that just wasn’t that in to you?
When the Lord saw that Leah was not loved, he opened her womb. Genesis 29: 31a (NIV)
Not being loved wasn’t just in Leah’s head. It wasn’t just thoughts of low self-worth that she was working through. Nope, it was not just a figment of her imagination. God himself knew that she was not loved. But even in a loveless marriage, she still had the ability to be productive.
She was convinced that if she proved her worth via birthing sons that Jacob’s sentiments toward her would change. She was rehearsing words like this in her head:
Surely my husband will love me now.
Now at last my husband will become attached to me, because I have borne him three sons.
Just thinking of Leah’s story brings to mind all the many other Leah’s of today. Women striving religiously to obtain love and to keep some man, whose heart is some where else, attached to them. I suppose most of us have played the role of Leah at some time in our life. Yep, I’m raising my hand. Although I was not producing babies, I was doing things outside of my character in an effort to maintain a relationship—all in the name of love.
When I think of Leah, my eyes wander back to a high school basketball I attended. As I looked around at all the swollen bellies and teetering toddlers holding the hands of teenage mothers, I thought wow we have really been busy producing. No doubt many of those babies were conceived with the idea of proving love to some one. Yet some how a love or lust like that is fleeting.
Bible Background text: Genesis 29:31-35