The longer I stay away from this blogging place, the harder I find it to get back into the swing of things. Some how the pressure to perform has sapped all the writing inspiration out of me. The calendar has declared it’s spring but I still feel the barrenness of winter in the depths of my soul. In some ways I feel calloused and cold, dry and longing for the spring rains to fall upon my parched soul once again.
In many ways I feel lost yet nothing has really changed. All things remain on the same course. Perhaps it’s the sameness of the course that is causing a restlessness within my spirit. But I have an ache for something more that does not yet appear upon the horizon.
Lately I have been reading Packing Light: Thoughts on Living Life With Less Baggage by Allison Vesterfelt and I have done so much highlighting in this book. The book shares the story of how the author gets the courage to follow her dream of traveling all 50 states along with her friend who dreams of being a singer. Although I admire their courage to leave behind the safety and confines of their typical day-to-day life, the book also helps me see all the places I’m holding excess things that only confined in the end.
Freedom is complicated. Sometimes the things we think will make us feel free don’t. And sometimes the things we worry will pin us down are exactly the things that teach us what we wish we knew all along—that freedom is less about circumstances than it is about perspective.
It’s one of those books that I can not speed through. It leaves me deep in self reflection on all the many ways I have accumulated excess and challenges me to ask different questions of myself and my environment.
She hits on many things that have a way of weighing us down like:
- doing the right thing because that is what is expected and it leaving us feeling frustrated and angry
- becoming too attached to following the rules
- being fearful of making the wrong decisions
- keeping quiet about our insecurities
Here’s another one of my favorite quotes from the book thus far,
Disclosure: Thanks to Story Cartel for providing a complimentary copy of the book in exchange for honest review.